That's literally exactly what I said to myself!
I tried to dismiss the thought from my head, but there was this thought of...
"What if this is actually worth it?"
At that point, I whipped out my credit card that I got when I was 17 years old that has 30% APR :/...
And I just stared at it...
"What if this is actually worth it?"
That's all I could think!
I was sick and tired of trying everything and everything not working...
I was sick and tired of secretly praying that the next thing was "The thing that would do it" for me...
I was sick and tired of things taking so damn long....
I was sick and tired, most of all, of watching everyone else succeed and me just feeling like I'm standing in place.
Despite being terrified, I put my card info into the website, and clicked submit...